A am ok.....................

I had a stroke - But I am getting better!!

Hi people!! I am almost back. I can speak really well, but I have gaps in my memory.

It has been a long road, but I am working - always working.

My sweet daughter Dakota said I am lucky, "really Mom the stoke could have left you unable to speak, or to move ..........."
So I am thanking God for all the good things in my life.

Oh- I had written a book -unedited ( boo) And I cannot figure out by book!!

I feel as though I had a stroke (heee heee) My life is crazy!!

So I wrote a shorter book - it's all about my sister, and how crazy she was as a little girl. I hope it is a good effort!!

Wish me great luck!!

See you tomorrow.

A not so great August

So August and,I had to spend a week at the hospital to address my hypertension, and my diabetes. I am so ticked off- things were going so well. And then all hell broke crazy.

It would have not been bad without the stroke, I have forgotten words and I can no longer write - my words are no longer finding me- and I feel quite lonely -oy.

I'm doing my best and I am praying. Hope to write soon :-)

JULY 11th - a TRIPLE TREAT.

So my husband was leaving for work and I was, in my usual mode of congratulating God for giving the people of the great state of Texas the BEST skies. We went into the garage and my husband walked outside and said, "Hey Honey, double rainbows!"

Me: What??!!!! :) :) :)
He: yep. check it out.
Me: Oh my gosh
He: Oh look another one !
Me: EEEEEEEEEE! ( internally, I am a good neighbor) Oh My gosh - magic!!
He: Wow this is awesome
Me: It's a gift from God ( I had just thanked him for the skies and well......come on people follow along...............:) THREE Rainbows people.
Me: I have to get the camera
He : Hurry, I think that they are fading
Me: eeeep! ( out loud)
The camera needed charging !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Our daughters make tons of home videos and movies for youtube
I plugged the camera into the outlet, attempting a quick charge - one minute good enough - mad dash to the driveway all that was left was one - I took ten Pics. Gheesh - yaaaaaah!

As you may have guessed from reading my stuff, I am an optimist. If God gave me three rainbows, he'll probably do it again - of maybe he'll give me five !!

HUGS

May through July- So awesome! and yesterday a Hummingbird!

So May was graduation from university for our first born Joshua.
We drove from Texas to New York. Two eager adults and three kiddies ages: 12, 11, and 3. It really was about time for a road trip, we have been taking it way too easy on Ari (3) . He was premature and so I think we opted to not subject him to the stress of a read trip. Texas to New York: zero Ari : 1!!

We were a little concerned that he might have a bathroom problem, but no. He waited for rest stops and had an awesome time. The girls had a groovy time and we, the rents , got to appreciate the musical genius of Ms. Miley Cyrus. Really I was singing along and dancing with the hands head and shoulders. I am NOT a good dancer so my children and husband found me hilarious. We stopped often and I am now totally in love with the mountains of the grand state of Tennessee.

Our son graduated from St. Johns University and it was wonderful. The ceremony was held on the lawn and it was bright and sunny till just after we saw him march up for his recognition- NEAT.
The school provided ponchos for all in attendance and we found that quite fun. We were reminded by a lovely woman at the en of the cereminies that we should retain the invitations, as they will com in handy when repayment of the student loans begin. Totally love that New York humor!

It was a fun day, but so emotionally draining. One has to face the facts that one child is now an adult and truly no longer of one nest.

One has to let go.
We all had dinner later that evening, my younger son eating my fish dinner - shocking (he's really picky) and my older son initiating and dominating the conversation. I felt so vital. Seriously, raising children is beyond awesome. It is easy to get distracted by one's ego, thinking that you have put everything into a child and then you get to realize everyday, that it is you who has changed and has been filled up by a stranger who is so much like you, but light years ahead.................... my heart is open and light, my children are cosmic events and I float on their trains of light.

So yesterday- The Hummingbird...

My husband said,"Honey look, a hummingbird",I flew to the window. This is the secong time we have seen a hummingbird since living in Texas. It fed in my zinias and it perches on a lovely ornamental tree an then it came within 12 inches of the window TWICE!!! As if checking out it's fans. It was bloody magical and darn it I said so. I said, "This is so magical, Magical". My lovely daughters were not impressed.

Growing up in Jamaica, I saw hummingbirsds every month. Hovering, magically flying backwards, opening up enchanted new roads into my imagination. I loved them, and I still think that they were created simply for me. I'm a little self involved sometimes, but really wouldn't you be if God created a whole species just for you? Be honest :-)

Don't you just love the Japanese

What's not to love, they are as obscessed with clean toilets and posteriors as I am. My dead grammie would be proud. I saw this ad on my favorite blog www.dooce.com and well I just laughed..
I am annoyingly optimistic and I can be happy on call at any time, so this kind of revelry crisps my bacon. Hee Hee!! Happiness is more than a state of mind- it is a choice of grace, who are you and what do you want to feel. It is never 'how', it is 'what' and that distinction can put you on the road to happy in short order.

But, why surrender now?

Did you ever wonder why criminals surrender? Why they run and then flop across the long arms of the law- spent?
In January of this year the bodies of Marine Lance Cpl. Maria Lauterbach and that of her unborn baby were found buried in the back yard of the home shared by Cpl. Cesar Laurean and his wife.

Maria Lauterbach was raped by Cesar Laurean and her baby was evidence of his crime. This crime was ignored by everyone including the young woman's own mother - but that's another story. The crime was being 'investigated' by the Marines, but even when she disappeared, the opinions of others regarding her honesty outweighed the belief that she could have been harmed. She lived with a guard across her mouth and even in death those who should have loved her attempted to silence her.

Well now Cesar Laurean has thrown himself against the Mexican authorities and he will be extradited to the United States. OY.

So why now? Why is he suddenly weary of running? And what's all this talk about "proof"?
I have always suspected that his wife may have had something to do with this crime. Consider a pregnant woman ringing your doorbell and declaring that she is carrying a child conceived through a rape and that the rapist is your husband. I would call the police, many other women might take matters into their own hands.........

Is he suddenly feeling less honor bound to his wife? Perhaps the wife- in a fit of jealousy, anger, fear- struck back at Lance Cpl. Maria Lauterbach and killed her. Then she called her husband- then he helped in the cleanup and disposal (sorry) of the bodies (the baby). This is not really a stretch is it?

Hillary Clinton- weaving tangled webs.........

So, Hillary can remember with clarity, something that never happened, in Bosnia.
In politics this is called 'misspeaking' in the real world- starting at home with one's Mom, things like this are called 'LYING'.
So what gives? has it now become acceptable for the Senator from New York to lie, only to excuse herself by stating the obvious "I'm human.."
What are liberals supposed to tell their children? Will this open a Pandora's Box of "I did not lie Mom, I misspoke, you said that it was O.K. when Hilary misspoke..."

Remember what former President Clinton's misspeaking did for sex in America? The suggestions from his jaunt against a woman who was not his wife, was that sex wasn't sex and there were millions of whores and whore supporters and enablers who embraced that LIE.

Everyone lies, but when we are caught, or when our moral compass tugs at our mind we apologize, chastise ourselves for being floppy pricks and move on.

We are considered mentally twisted (the medical term) if we pretend that the problem is with others.
Hillary has enjoyed a lifetime of lies and now that the spigot is on full force, she is finding it difficult to turn it down.
I tell my children that they need to tell the truth at all times. It is always better to take a few steps back to preserve your claim to authenticity.
Now, as a Republican, I have seen the current administration lie to the cost of thousands of lives.
Everyone,save the crazies, have acknowledged that we as a nation have been 'hoodwinked', but really do we want another four years of someone who thinks that it is o.k. to play loosey goosey with the truth?
I am reminded of something I heard years ago- I think that it was from Maya Angelou- When people show you who they are, believe them.

Hilary has shown us that neither her memory nor her tongue can be trusted- we should believe her.
Dionne

Once you bite the BULLET- you're done!!

So this Saturday, my husband and I took the kiddies to Kemah, TEXAS. They have a cute boardwalk and lots of over priced water" $3.00 for 20 ounces of Desani- Sheesh!!. But we drank it and we liked it so there and wel l you are not allowed to bring in your own water so.....

Anyhoo, I have never ridden a coaster, I lived in New York and I have watched friends mount that wooded death trap on Coney Island with-mild disdain. Perhaps even intense pity.
So what would make me mount the BULLET at Kemah? My daughters (12 &10). "Ohh Oh Mommie Please!" "Oh gosh it would be sooooooo much fun" "MOM Really!!"

Well we were really early to Kemah, arriving around 9:45AM and the place was practically deserted( Starbucks was open)

1) We were behind 15 people on line for the BULLET.
2) I am a morning person -always have been. If you would like to get me to do anything daring and reckless catch me before 11 A.M.
3) My children can get me to do practically anything.
4) My husband said, "Go on honey, I'll just hang out with Ari". ( Ari is 31/2)

We all walked up an huge winding ramp, I passes by all the warnings without reading them, because I had taken my purse and I was securing my purse and glasses.....

As we buckled in and the bars were set my lovely older daughter said, "Well the sign did say you should not ride if you have any doubts-hee hee"

"What?? Seriously??!!! What!"
Wait I have doubts....
What followed was the most terrifying ride of my life. This ride is insane INSANE. I started screaming until I realized that this just amped the intensity, then my body started crying- crying.
I prayed and then I heard a "tick tick ticktick" The gears, as we climbed and then the drop - my younger daughter gave a little yelp and then I simply went to the only affirmation I could find:

"GOD, Dear GOD I Am NOT Afraid" -It helped

Truth: I was afraid, but once into the fear you just have to ride it out, and when you have stopped you realize that you have come through something 'kinda WOW'.
I could barely stand on steady feel once the machine let me go :-)
My daughters ran ahead and I was walking/running like an old chick rasping "wait for me"

My fear also has been immortalized -My husband bought the picture of my down the wooden hill torture. So there.

True: there are faster coasters, true: I am a little wussy, True: Kids can 'make' you do dopey things.
True: You will never regret it.
True: My entire body hurts two days later, not because of the BULLET, but because of all the walking and the FUN. Tomorrow I will tell you about the speedboat and the fun crew and how I totally love spending time with my family !

Ouch!
Dionne

Elliot Spitzer is a whore - and his wife is by his side-For Shame

What is wrong with these women?

What kind of Stepford nonsense is this?

Does a political handler inject these women with some idiot tonic, that makes them stand proudly alongside men who have sullied their marriage bed?


Do these women lose their souls and every whisper of their self respect upon marrying a politician?
These idiots have three (3) daughters! What does it say to your daughters when (Dad) sleeps with prostitutes, and (Mom) stands by Dad? What is happening to our society when this kind of thing is so acceptable that the whore politician can appear in front of a press corp and excuse his filth as if his filth were a few misplaced receipts?

Maybe I am just a different woman, because I would not be standing next to a husband who could so easily: cheat, lie, steal, violate and spit on my marriage. Is there no anger, have these women been so brainwashed by the 'power ' that they now feel trapped?

Is there no pride anymore? Is there no righteous indignation? Do any of these women own a gun or a rusty knife? Seriously, Elliot Spitzer needs to get neutered and who better to make the first cut than his pathetic wife.