A not so great August

So August and,I had to spend a week at the hospital to address my hypertension, and my diabetes. I am so ticked off- things were going so well. And then all hell broke crazy.

It would have not been bad without the stroke, I have forgotten words and I can no longer write - my words are no longer finding me- and I feel quite lonely -oy.

I'm doing my best and I am praying. Hope to write soon :-)

JULY 11th - a TRIPLE TREAT.

So my husband was leaving for work and I was, in my usual mode of congratulating God for giving the people of the great state of Texas the BEST skies. We went into the garage and my husband walked outside and said, "Hey Honey, double rainbows!"

Me: What??!!!! :) :) :)
He: yep. check it out.
Me: Oh my gosh
He: Oh look another one !
Me: EEEEEEEEEE! ( internally, I am a good neighbor) Oh My gosh - magic!!
He: Wow this is awesome
Me: It's a gift from God ( I had just thanked him for the skies and well......come on people follow along...............:) THREE Rainbows people.
Me: I have to get the camera
He : Hurry, I think that they are fading
Me: eeeep! ( out loud)
The camera needed charging !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Our daughters make tons of home videos and movies for youtube
I plugged the camera into the outlet, attempting a quick charge - one minute good enough - mad dash to the driveway all that was left was one - I took ten Pics. Gheesh - yaaaaaah!

As you may have guessed from reading my stuff, I am an optimist. If God gave me three rainbows, he'll probably do it again - of maybe he'll give me five !!

HUGS

May through July- So awesome! and yesterday a Hummingbird!

So May was graduation from university for our first born Joshua.
We drove from Texas to New York. Two eager adults and three kiddies ages: 12, 11, and 3. It really was about time for a road trip, we have been taking it way too easy on Ari (3) . He was premature and so I think we opted to not subject him to the stress of a read trip. Texas to New York: zero Ari : 1!!

We were a little concerned that he might have a bathroom problem, but no. He waited for rest stops and had an awesome time. The girls had a groovy time and we, the rents , got to appreciate the musical genius of Ms. Miley Cyrus. Really I was singing along and dancing with the hands head and shoulders. I am NOT a good dancer so my children and husband found me hilarious. We stopped often and I am now totally in love with the mountains of the grand state of Tennessee.

Our son graduated from St. Johns University and it was wonderful. The ceremony was held on the lawn and it was bright and sunny till just after we saw him march up for his recognition- NEAT.
The school provided ponchos for all in attendance and we found that quite fun. We were reminded by a lovely woman at the en of the cereminies that we should retain the invitations, as they will com in handy when repayment of the student loans begin. Totally love that New York humor!

It was a fun day, but so emotionally draining. One has to face the facts that one child is now an adult and truly no longer of one nest.

One has to let go.
We all had dinner later that evening, my younger son eating my fish dinner - shocking (he's really picky) and my older son initiating and dominating the conversation. I felt so vital. Seriously, raising children is beyond awesome. It is easy to get distracted by one's ego, thinking that you have put everything into a child and then you get to realize everyday, that it is you who has changed and has been filled up by a stranger who is so much like you, but light years ahead.................... my heart is open and light, my children are cosmic events and I float on their trains of light.

So yesterday- The Hummingbird...

My husband said,"Honey look, a hummingbird",I flew to the window. This is the secong time we have seen a hummingbird since living in Texas. It fed in my zinias and it perches on a lovely ornamental tree an then it came within 12 inches of the window TWICE!!! As if checking out it's fans. It was bloody magical and darn it I said so. I said, "This is so magical, Magical". My lovely daughters were not impressed.

Growing up in Jamaica, I saw hummingbirsds every month. Hovering, magically flying backwards, opening up enchanted new roads into my imagination. I loved them, and I still think that they were created simply for me. I'm a little self involved sometimes, but really wouldn't you be if God created a whole species just for you? Be honest :-)

Don't you just love the Japanese

What's not to love, they are as obscessed with clean toilets and posteriors as I am. My dead grammie would be proud. I saw this ad on my favorite blog www.dooce.com and well I just laughed..
I am annoyingly optimistic and I can be happy on call at any time, so this kind of revelry crisps my bacon. Hee Hee!! Happiness is more than a state of mind- it is a choice of grace, who are you and what do you want to feel. It is never 'how', it is 'what' and that distinction can put you on the road to happy in short order.

But, why surrender now?

Did you ever wonder why criminals surrender? Why they run and then flop across the long arms of the law- spent?
In January of this year the bodies of Marine Lance Cpl. Maria Lauterbach and that of her unborn baby were found buried in the back yard of the home shared by Cpl. Cesar Laurean and his wife.

Maria Lauterbach was raped by Cesar Laurean and her baby was evidence of his crime. This crime was ignored by everyone including the young woman's own mother - but that's another story. The crime was being 'investigated' by the Marines, but even when she disappeared, the opinions of others regarding her honesty outweighed the belief that she could have been harmed. She lived with a guard across her mouth and even in death those who should have loved her attempted to silence her.

Well now Cesar Laurean has thrown himself against the Mexican authorities and he will be extradited to the United States. OY.

So why now? Why is he suddenly weary of running? And what's all this talk about "proof"?
I have always suspected that his wife may have had something to do with this crime. Consider a pregnant woman ringing your doorbell and declaring that she is carrying a child conceived through a rape and that the rapist is your husband. I would call the police, many other women might take matters into their own hands.........

Is he suddenly feeling less honor bound to his wife? Perhaps the wife- in a fit of jealousy, anger, fear- struck back at Lance Cpl. Maria Lauterbach and killed her. Then she called her husband- then he helped in the cleanup and disposal (sorry) of the bodies (the baby). This is not really a stretch is it?

Hillary Clinton- weaving tangled webs.........

So, Hillary can remember with clarity, something that never happened, in Bosnia.
In politics this is called 'misspeaking' in the real world- starting at home with one's Mom, things like this are called 'LYING'.
So what gives? has it now become acceptable for the Senator from New York to lie, only to excuse herself by stating the obvious "I'm human.."
What are liberals supposed to tell their children? Will this open a Pandora's Box of "I did not lie Mom, I misspoke, you said that it was O.K. when Hilary misspoke..."

Remember what former President Clinton's misspeaking did for sex in America? The suggestions from his jaunt against a woman who was not his wife, was that sex wasn't sex and there were millions of whores and whore supporters and enablers who embraced that LIE.

Everyone lies, but when we are caught, or when our moral compass tugs at our mind we apologize, chastise ourselves for being floppy pricks and move on.

We are considered mentally twisted (the medical term) if we pretend that the problem is with others.
Hillary has enjoyed a lifetime of lies and now that the spigot is on full force, she is finding it difficult to turn it down.
I tell my children that they need to tell the truth at all times. It is always better to take a few steps back to preserve your claim to authenticity.
Now, as a Republican, I have seen the current administration lie to the cost of thousands of lives.
Everyone,save the crazies, have acknowledged that we as a nation have been 'hoodwinked', but really do we want another four years of someone who thinks that it is o.k. to play loosey goosey with the truth?
I am reminded of something I heard years ago- I think that it was from Maya Angelou- When people show you who they are, believe them.

Hilary has shown us that neither her memory nor her tongue can be trusted- we should believe her.
Dionne

Once you bite the BULLET- you're done!!

So this Saturday, my husband and I took the kiddies to Kemah, TEXAS. They have a cute boardwalk and lots of over priced water" $3.00 for 20 ounces of Desani- Sheesh!!. But we drank it and we liked it so there and wel l you are not allowed to bring in your own water so.....

Anyhoo, I have never ridden a coaster, I lived in New York and I have watched friends mount that wooded death trap on Coney Island with-mild disdain. Perhaps even intense pity.
So what would make me mount the BULLET at Kemah? My daughters (12 &10). "Ohh Oh Mommie Please!" "Oh gosh it would be sooooooo much fun" "MOM Really!!"

Well we were really early to Kemah, arriving around 9:45AM and the place was practically deserted( Starbucks was open)

1) We were behind 15 people on line for the BULLET.
2) I am a morning person -always have been. If you would like to get me to do anything daring and reckless catch me before 11 A.M.
3) My children can get me to do practically anything.
4) My husband said, "Go on honey, I'll just hang out with Ari". ( Ari is 31/2)

We all walked up an huge winding ramp, I passes by all the warnings without reading them, because I had taken my purse and I was securing my purse and glasses.....

As we buckled in and the bars were set my lovely older daughter said, "Well the sign did say you should not ride if you have any doubts-hee hee"

"What?? Seriously??!!! What!"
Wait I have doubts....
What followed was the most terrifying ride of my life. This ride is insane INSANE. I started screaming until I realized that this just amped the intensity, then my body started crying- crying.
I prayed and then I heard a "tick tick ticktick" The gears, as we climbed and then the drop - my younger daughter gave a little yelp and then I simply went to the only affirmation I could find:

"GOD, Dear GOD I Am NOT Afraid" -It helped

Truth: I was afraid, but once into the fear you just have to ride it out, and when you have stopped you realize that you have come through something 'kinda WOW'.
I could barely stand on steady feel once the machine let me go :-)
My daughters ran ahead and I was walking/running like an old chick rasping "wait for me"

My fear also has been immortalized -My husband bought the picture of my down the wooden hill torture. So there.

True: there are faster coasters, true: I am a little wussy, True: Kids can 'make' you do dopey things.
True: You will never regret it.
True: My entire body hurts two days later, not because of the BULLET, but because of all the walking and the FUN. Tomorrow I will tell you about the speedboat and the fun crew and how I totally love spending time with my family !

Ouch!
Dionne

Elliot Spitzer is a whore - and his wife is by his side-For Shame

What is wrong with these women?

What kind of Stepford nonsense is this?

Does a political handler inject these women with some idiot tonic, that makes them stand proudly alongside men who have sullied their marriage bed?


Do these women lose their souls and every whisper of their self respect upon marrying a politician?
These idiots have three (3) daughters! What does it say to your daughters when (Dad) sleeps with prostitutes, and (Mom) stands by Dad? What is happening to our society when this kind of thing is so acceptable that the whore politician can appear in front of a press corp and excuse his filth as if his filth were a few misplaced receipts?

Maybe I am just a different woman, because I would not be standing next to a husband who could so easily: cheat, lie, steal, violate and spit on my marriage. Is there no anger, have these women been so brainwashed by the 'power ' that they now feel trapped?

Is there no pride anymore? Is there no righteous indignation? Do any of these women own a gun or a rusty knife? Seriously, Elliot Spitzer needs to get neutered and who better to make the first cut than his pathetic wife.

Hillary -as Cheese

Will this candidate ever go away? What is it about her that makes me fearful?
Is it because she's so damn unlikeable? I admit that that is unfair, because many people find me unlikeable, simply because I'm pretty ambitious. I like to win, I love winning, and I like fair play.

I think that it is perfectly acceptable for the Senator from New York to attack the Senator from Illinois. The substance of the attacks are what I consider troubling. Hillary Clinton does not seem to be alive to the fact that our country is in an economic depression (Wall Street is another thing). Hillary Clinton can use stories of struggling Americans to punch up her speeches, but does she really understand what it is like to have no money. Does she understand that there are children in America who eat only two meals daily, breakfast and lunch at school.

Does she truly understand that we would not have a financial health crisis if practically every dollar of Medicaid was not going to serve illegal aliens. Does she realize that if an uninsured working American takes a child to the hospital, that visit will put that family in debt because they cannot secure Medicaid? Does she realize that it is not that people do not want medical coverage, it is that thay sometimes cannot even afford the co-pay!!!

It is that bad.

Does she realize that companies are opting to export professional work to foreign countries- not because we do not have an able workforce here, but because many corporations seek to avoid paying a fair wage? Does she care, or is this run simply a mad dash for power?

For obvious reasons, I knew that she would take Ohio- it is obvious that they are not as concerned for their job losses as the rest of the country is. NAFTA is a big deal and it has caused a level of progressive shift away from the U.S. that will be difficult to rectify. To a large degree most Americans do not understand how the country works. They do not understand money, nor do they understand economic cause and effect. Many approach life with a guidebook from the crazy Right (note: this does not mean Republican) or from the crazy left.
With this approach, we have a country operating on the principles of 'anything goes'. This then leaves the rest of us jumping about and shouting 'no ,no, no, no!
With this backdrop we have a country teetering on the brink and the citizens think that 'everything is alright in America'.

Texas 4th March 2008

Tomorrow I head to the polls in Texas and with a heavy heart, I will vote for a Democrat. I really want to vomit about the whole thing, but what can I do? I cannot vote for John McCain, and my second choice Huckabee has lost his hold on the voters, Romney- my first option- dead. How can Republicans be so wrong?
I have been a Republican since I migrated and it was a fully explored decision. The Democratic party was the one that called for us immigrants to stay in our place, while the Republican party called for self reliance and honor and duty. It was a code of ethics that appealed to me on a practical level. It resonated with many of the people I have come to call friends, because they too believe in the American promise that if you fall you can always find the resources, spiritual or financial to get up.
The Republican ideal calls for us to always get up and to always move forward. Now there are those who call themselves 'Republicans', 'right-wing', 'far right', 'conservatives' or the 'moral right'. They have no real idea about how the country works- that balance between what we want and what we can afford, yet they are determined to affect policy. They are not concerned with the need for emotional buoyancy in our country, but they decry the deflated feelings and actions of the most affected members of our society (the middle class).
I know that we can't have Ronald Reagan, but McCain?? This man has a psychological score to settle and I am positive that our country will be left picking up the shards of glass. A leader who needs war and encourages the expansion of a war that was poorly planned and pathetically executed is dangerous and bloody mental. A leader who encouraged men and women to fight until they are broken only to come home and be denied care for their trauma and wounds is one who cannot be trusted with power over a people who are too afraid to say -NO.

A leader who stood up against water boarding before he entered the race , only to vote against the measure to abolish the practice now that he is in the race is not worthy of any vote. This is beyond waffling - it instead points directly to his character and the obvious deficits.

I cannot vote for Hillary Clinton because it would be unreasonable for me to think that she would be in charge. I can hear the rasps of 'you hag', but bear with me. This is the same woman who stood still by a man who repeatedly, publicly and tastelessly cheated on her. She did nothing and yet we are to believe that he will have no control in the running of our country.
I do not agree with asking the female candidate if she can control her husband, particularly because that question is tasteless and that we already know the answer to that query.

I believe that William Clinton would again have his sticky hands all over the affairs of this country and we would not survive another bout. The Senator talks about leadership and experience yet what has she done with this experience?
Also just who is Hillary Clinton? Is she the smiling, I'm-so honored-to be-here candidate, the tired weeping (misty) candidate or the screaming angry woman complaining about an old campaign poster? I'm not saying that she's unstable, but I have learned nothing new about Hillary Clinton during this run and I do not know what face to buy.
Yes she can rub shoulders and forge back room deals with the big boys, but is that what America is all about? Are we not about transparency, do we not encourage those testing the seeds of Democracy to deal from a clean deck?

I am voting for Senator Obama because he appears to be open to having a reasonable dialogue with the American people. He seems to want our country to operate for all the people and not those those who are rich, or poor, but for the millions of others who are beginning to feel like Serfs in their own country. Emotionally, he is a mix of Michael Manley and Edward Seaga, both were Prime Ministers of Jamaica. They belonged to opposing parties, made radically different decisions about Jamaica, but they loved their country. I am hoping that Senator Obama, if he prevails will have Manley's tenderness and raw love for the people coupled with Seaga's practical belief in self reliance, a balanced budgeteducation and naked balls.
We need someone who is going to take the economic problems and the staggering debt by the scruff and tell the financially illiterate American people the truth about, the failing dollar, this frighteningly expensive war, and the economy which is now a five hundred pound woman, running in four inch Manolo Blahniks.
So I am voting tomorrow, for a Democrat and I am still unsettled by that fact, but I am reminded that I did vote for President George W. Bush- twice, and he has proven in many ways the he is no Republican.

.....Then again, there is Mike Huckabee, and we Christians need to show active support for those who are in agreement with us. Decisions....
Vote America!!
Dionne Cunningham

Happy Valentine's Day

I hope that the day finds you in love with you.

Why? - Because at day's end you can't get that love cup filled if you haven't been maintaining it. If you haven't found that special someone - work on 'the' special someone - YOU.

Why? - Because a person who practices love will find love in the most unexpected places. I promise.

HUGS!!

What to do if you've lost your bananas.

I guess I really wanted to listen to Audrey Hepburn but one can hardly refuse the genius of muppets. So what if there is that key ingredient missing from your day. What does one do without one's essential bananas? The answer I have found is everything else. Life has so many open doors that there is never a reason to be bored, tired perhaps, but never bored. There are always ways to fill the days and to find one's purpose for the hours or day. My girls are 10 and 12 and they have become old pros at the home school. So professional that I am sometimes at a loss because they are so far ahead. I'll assign work that by it's design should require two hours of their time and they will finish in thirty minutes- sans mistake!
I then question the rigor of the work ......Finding no problems- I am convinced that they are golden!
My three year old is suddenly annoyingly independent! "You go", he says - with authority!

I know- OY.

My bananas are my books- I am having a really hard time - I am blocked- yet I know that there is no block, there is just me. I am lying across the roads and the tributaries of my thoughts and I cannot seem to remove myself. I seem afraid of my own voice, weird and strange (yes both) since I already know the sound of my own voice.
I have to grade a few papers and then get back to talking again- I'm not really 'worried' - I'll Ketchup :-)
HUGS!!

Resolution 2008

Everyone needs a fight song and this does it for me! What's your fight song? What gets you pumped? When things suck or when they are so great - words fail you, that my friend is when you need a fight song. Citi posts a $10 BILLION loss, Bank of America is buying that great example of stellar underwriting principles- Countrywide- Fight song!
When your blood sugar is high and you haven't had a gram of sugar in days - you bloody need a fight song!
When you look in the mirror and you looook goood! You can hear your fight song playing- You KNOW what I am talking about !

So HAKA like a Maori, I do and laugh if you must, I sometimes HAKA naked !! HA!

I just cannot take myself seriously when things suck, because I have the simmer and implode gene. Unfortunately I have a deactivated explosion gene although many people actually think that they have seen me angry- phfff..f .

Anyhoo, I need a fight song for this year, because I aim to finish all of my BIG projects this year. Yes - all of them. This is when my mentor - a certain Ms. Bakker would interject with a "ahem, Dionne, did you say 'all' of your BIG projects?" and I would have to say- Yes.
I'm a shoot for the stars kind of girl, I dream big, I win big and I often fail big, HEY - but let me tell you about the wins! Yeah :-)
Happy 2008 People, Dream BIG, Rock out harder and even if you fall on you tushie you are guaranteed to bounce!!

Life is sooo funny!

This bit is so funny and I find that it reflects the annoying drama of our current 'run for the white house'. While I am no fan of Hilary Clinton, I am more than annoyed at the questions regarding her ability to "control her husband". When has it ever been a woman's job to control her husband. The fact that many of those asking the question are also chicks- really pomps my poodle. Sheesh. So it is not enough that a woman may have to take executive charge of the United States- she must also see to it that her husband a grown man is being controlled. What is even more shocking- is the fact that Madame Hillary has answered in the affirmative!! Yes apparently she can and she will control former President William Clinton. Surprisingly, no one has asked Senators Obama or McMcain if either man planned to control their wives. It is probably a question that we should pose to the men because as a wife and a chick - I know that I have often said some pretty outrageous things. Yes - things that if they left our bedroom would give my husband pause on any podium. Why? because I am human and I am a woman and it it my job to shake things up-Period. Now Michelle Obama is a really bright woman and she will probably say what's on her mind- but will that be a problem. Men are often treated with kid gloves, 'let us not worry their pretty little heads, they have man business to tend and to grow'
Women are required to do everything therefore even a tenure as chief executive of the world most hard working republic- she still needs to multi-task. Why did she not inquire of the reporter if such control exists in her own home. These are questions that people ask without concern for the realities that we mothers, wives and house chicks face. We are too busy controlling our own real estate that we would be hard pressed to control our husbands.
Marriage is a partnership, and often our husbands offer their opinions, if it is a good marriage we are never annoyed at the opinions. If one is charged with controlling an entire country - well- the more well presented opinions the better. But the idea that a woman in control of the United States would be so weak that her husband would just run roughshod over her presidency is remarkably stupid. The reporters and the news organizations that continue with these stupid questions reflect an America more stupid than the clods in Saudi Arabia.
Marriage is a partnership with the one you love, the presidency is a love affair with the American people- it's a partnership, and it it opinionated input that make partnerships great- well, at least in our house.

Just over a fortnight ago my Hubby had a man cold, with a fever and everything!!!! I felt so badly for him, I made him soup and tea and I was so in charge - HEEEE HEE he he heeee. He's better now.

Pregnant and missing. Marine Lauterbach is dead.

So what do you do when you tell your Mother that you were raped by a fellow Marine. In a world that cares for it's women and it's daughters, that mother would fight for justice and do everything to return her daughter's life to one that understood the word security.

This was not the world of Lance Cpl. Maria Frances Lauterbach. In her world, her 'mom' would tell investigators that she was "bipolar" and that she was a "compulsive liar". This would then prompt the brilliant, caring and local sheriff Ed Brown to make statements that implied ( at least to my ears) that she had done something and that she should just come home. Now she's dead! DEAD. MURDERED. I wonder what her helpful mother is saying. Perhaps she's not dead- perhaps her state is simply a compulsive lie. I read a few message boards and the majority of what I read was beyond disturbing. People were more concerned that this poor woman who was raped, had a male roommate than over the fact that she was in her ninth month of pregnancy and missing.

The mother considered her a compulsive liar- so of course everyone believed that. And of course compulsive liars can never be raped - PIFFLE!!!!!!! Why do women add to the destruction of other women? Why do so many mothers hate their daughters? How sooner would Maria Frances have been found had her 'mother' chosen not to assassinate her character?
Why is it that we complain about the treatment of women in foreign countries, when women are treated similarly in the United States.

According to the last story- her body has not been recovered, but she was allegedly buried in a shallow grave- seems fitting for a girl who cried for help to a family that ignored her and left her for the maggots of lies. I pray for us all, and I weep for all the young girls who live out their lives with secrets, fear and shame in their hearts BECAUSE- they know that no one will believe them.
Filled with sadness and anger

Politics 2008 Change to What???

Ordinarily, I am a political hog. I love politics. It was therefore quite perplexing that I have had a an oppressive sense of ennui for the past two years. It is possibly due to the fact that I twice voted for the current administration, only to have to admit that I have voted for 'Republicans' who have no idea what being a Republican is. I am a strict constructionist when it comes to the Constitution, and it has therefore been quite disheartening to see the President's use of fear and other heavy handed tactics turn our Constitutional protections into a box of used tissues.
I do not regret my vote, I am just angry, and I am even more angry to see the pool of idiots that are currently hoping to claim the spoils of President Bush. I am a Republican- this cannot change because the Republican party is the only one that truly represents the plan of the people. As an immigrant, I have always viewed America as a shiny box of parts. Everything is here, every dream can be realized with proper planning and the understanding that if the dreams fall apart- we can still start over and eventually succeed. The Democrats have no such understanding of what America stands for. Theirs is a party of divisions, of the poor and the inner city, of the down trodden and those privilege enough to lend a hand. Theirs is the party that allows for filthy racial quotas and lowered test scores. In short the Democratic party needs it's members to remember their place.
As an immigrant- I choose my place and I will change it through planning and hard word. I know what it feels like to fall, to fail and to rise and to win, so no I know who I am. The problem though is that every nominee is desperate to be Barack Obama. Everyone is offerng 'CHANGE'. The problem is that no one - especially Obama has expressed what that change is. What's going to happen? What will they change? what needs changing? I happen to like Ron Paul, but it seems that so far, he can raise massive amounts of money, but he had never been able to capture a top three position. It is quite disheartening because his inability to gain traction has everything to do with the general population inability to understand basic economics and basic political facts. Ron Paul is correct- we cannot sustain this war for the long term- three years - ten years- are you kidding me?
I like Mitt Romney, who is currently having to deal with religious bigotry from the Christian right, and he's a Christian. It's bloody insane. Pat Roberts - a big guy in Christian circles endorsed Giuliani -AHRRRGH. Giuliani who thinks it's OK to be gay and have the full protection of the society, kill babies (yes the unborn are babies) and well, make so many thoughtless decisions that he is now on his third or fourth wife. Sheesh I get it, you know he fall in love easily or he get bored or whatever! When a Christian endorses Giuliani it's pretty hard to hold that 'christian' in high regard.
Huckabee - wow, well who wouldn't like him, this is a man who has proven that he can make a commitment and stick to it (I'm referring to his massive weight loss) um he's a Baptist minister and he too seems to have a problem with Romney's Mormonism.
Then there's on the left- Hilary. Do we want the Clintons back in the White House. Last time they held court in the oval office, there was a 'breakdown' in discipline. While I do not believe in holding the past against those who may have changed, there is still the talk of socializing every bloody thing. I cannot seem to muster the strength to wail! Perhaps I'll be thrilled com Super Tuesday.
Bye!

All I want for Christmas!

It's finally 2008! Who hoo! I had a great 2007, my family was so blessed that I have no complaints. I was able to say a prayer of thanks everyday ( I may have missed forty or so) Sometimes forgetting that God is blessing you occurs when you are overwhelmed with blessings. Everything is wonderful- but I still feel that there is something missing...
Superficially, I am thinking that I am missing the Kindle from Amazon.com. The kindle is a wireless reading device- Wireless? - yes! you don't have to sync a thing!!

I really am a book girl- but I have to give in to technology and the Kindle is only 0.7 inches thick and well, who could look away from such a light reading facilitator. I suppose I am getting a little tired of waiting on Amazon and B&N to send my books in 2 days! Sheesh!
I decided to buy my own Kindle and they are sold out at Amazon !!! I'll wait.

Spiritually I think I am missing my mission- I have a book that I have been editing for such a bloody long time it is beginning to feel like dinner with extended family members- you know...
I feel like I am ripping of my own dream because this book seems bigger than the box that I brought to put it in. Crazy, because I know that I can handle it and I am never afraid of the things that I write, but I question weather I can make a difference sometimes. So ready or not I am going to publish in April of 2008- there I've said it.

Like Mondays, a New Year is a great beginning and I am frothy with buoyancy as that one voice in my head like to say. This year comes loaded with possibilities and wonderful probabilities and my heart is wide open. I will have prayers of thanks everyday and a big wide smile in my cockles!!! Love