Resolution 2008

Everyone needs a fight song and this does it for me! What's your fight song? What gets you pumped? When things suck or when they are so great - words fail you, that my friend is when you need a fight song. Citi posts a $10 BILLION loss, Bank of America is buying that great example of stellar underwriting principles- Countrywide- Fight song!
When your blood sugar is high and you haven't had a gram of sugar in days - you bloody need a fight song!
When you look in the mirror and you looook goood! You can hear your fight song playing- You KNOW what I am talking about !

So HAKA like a Maori, I do and laugh if you must, I sometimes HAKA naked !! HA!

I just cannot take myself seriously when things suck, because I have the simmer and implode gene. Unfortunately I have a deactivated explosion gene although many people actually think that they have seen me angry- phfff..f .

Anyhoo, I need a fight song for this year, because I aim to finish all of my BIG projects this year. Yes - all of them. This is when my mentor - a certain Ms. Bakker would interject with a "ahem, Dionne, did you say 'all' of your BIG projects?" and I would have to say- Yes.
I'm a shoot for the stars kind of girl, I dream big, I win big and I often fail big, HEY - but let me tell you about the wins! Yeah :-)
Happy 2008 People, Dream BIG, Rock out harder and even if you fall on you tushie you are guaranteed to bounce!!

Life is sooo funny!

This bit is so funny and I find that it reflects the annoying drama of our current 'run for the white house'. While I am no fan of Hilary Clinton, I am more than annoyed at the questions regarding her ability to "control her husband". When has it ever been a woman's job to control her husband. The fact that many of those asking the question are also chicks- really pomps my poodle. Sheesh. So it is not enough that a woman may have to take executive charge of the United States- she must also see to it that her husband a grown man is being controlled. What is even more shocking- is the fact that Madame Hillary has answered in the affirmative!! Yes apparently she can and she will control former President William Clinton. Surprisingly, no one has asked Senators Obama or McMcain if either man planned to control their wives. It is probably a question that we should pose to the men because as a wife and a chick - I know that I have often said some pretty outrageous things. Yes - things that if they left our bedroom would give my husband pause on any podium. Why? because I am human and I am a woman and it it my job to shake things up-Period. Now Michelle Obama is a really bright woman and she will probably say what's on her mind- but will that be a problem. Men are often treated with kid gloves, 'let us not worry their pretty little heads, they have man business to tend and to grow'
Women are required to do everything therefore even a tenure as chief executive of the world most hard working republic- she still needs to multi-task. Why did she not inquire of the reporter if such control exists in her own home. These are questions that people ask without concern for the realities that we mothers, wives and house chicks face. We are too busy controlling our own real estate that we would be hard pressed to control our husbands.
Marriage is a partnership, and often our husbands offer their opinions, if it is a good marriage we are never annoyed at the opinions. If one is charged with controlling an entire country - well- the more well presented opinions the better. But the idea that a woman in control of the United States would be so weak that her husband would just run roughshod over her presidency is remarkably stupid. The reporters and the news organizations that continue with these stupid questions reflect an America more stupid than the clods in Saudi Arabia.
Marriage is a partnership with the one you love, the presidency is a love affair with the American people- it's a partnership, and it it opinionated input that make partnerships great- well, at least in our house.

Just over a fortnight ago my Hubby had a man cold, with a fever and everything!!!! I felt so badly for him, I made him soup and tea and I was so in charge - HEEEE HEE he he heeee. He's better now.

Pregnant and missing. Marine Lauterbach is dead.

So what do you do when you tell your Mother that you were raped by a fellow Marine. In a world that cares for it's women and it's daughters, that mother would fight for justice and do everything to return her daughter's life to one that understood the word security.

This was not the world of Lance Cpl. Maria Frances Lauterbach. In her world, her 'mom' would tell investigators that she was "bipolar" and that she was a "compulsive liar". This would then prompt the brilliant, caring and local sheriff Ed Brown to make statements that implied ( at least to my ears) that she had done something and that she should just come home. Now she's dead! DEAD. MURDERED. I wonder what her helpful mother is saying. Perhaps she's not dead- perhaps her state is simply a compulsive lie. I read a few message boards and the majority of what I read was beyond disturbing. People were more concerned that this poor woman who was raped, had a male roommate than over the fact that she was in her ninth month of pregnancy and missing.

The mother considered her a compulsive liar- so of course everyone believed that. And of course compulsive liars can never be raped - PIFFLE!!!!!!! Why do women add to the destruction of other women? Why do so many mothers hate their daughters? How sooner would Maria Frances have been found had her 'mother' chosen not to assassinate her character?
Why is it that we complain about the treatment of women in foreign countries, when women are treated similarly in the United States.

According to the last story- her body has not been recovered, but she was allegedly buried in a shallow grave- seems fitting for a girl who cried for help to a family that ignored her and left her for the maggots of lies. I pray for us all, and I weep for all the young girls who live out their lives with secrets, fear and shame in their hearts BECAUSE- they know that no one will believe them.
Filled with sadness and anger

Politics 2008 Change to What???

Ordinarily, I am a political hog. I love politics. It was therefore quite perplexing that I have had a an oppressive sense of ennui for the past two years. It is possibly due to the fact that I twice voted for the current administration, only to have to admit that I have voted for 'Republicans' who have no idea what being a Republican is. I am a strict constructionist when it comes to the Constitution, and it has therefore been quite disheartening to see the President's use of fear and other heavy handed tactics turn our Constitutional protections into a box of used tissues.
I do not regret my vote, I am just angry, and I am even more angry to see the pool of idiots that are currently hoping to claim the spoils of President Bush. I am a Republican- this cannot change because the Republican party is the only one that truly represents the plan of the people. As an immigrant, I have always viewed America as a shiny box of parts. Everything is here, every dream can be realized with proper planning and the understanding that if the dreams fall apart- we can still start over and eventually succeed. The Democrats have no such understanding of what America stands for. Theirs is a party of divisions, of the poor and the inner city, of the down trodden and those privilege enough to lend a hand. Theirs is the party that allows for filthy racial quotas and lowered test scores. In short the Democratic party needs it's members to remember their place.
As an immigrant- I choose my place and I will change it through planning and hard word. I know what it feels like to fall, to fail and to rise and to win, so no I know who I am. The problem though is that every nominee is desperate to be Barack Obama. Everyone is offerng 'CHANGE'. The problem is that no one - especially Obama has expressed what that change is. What's going to happen? What will they change? what needs changing? I happen to like Ron Paul, but it seems that so far, he can raise massive amounts of money, but he had never been able to capture a top three position. It is quite disheartening because his inability to gain traction has everything to do with the general population inability to understand basic economics and basic political facts. Ron Paul is correct- we cannot sustain this war for the long term- three years - ten years- are you kidding me?
I like Mitt Romney, who is currently having to deal with religious bigotry from the Christian right, and he's a Christian. It's bloody insane. Pat Roberts - a big guy in Christian circles endorsed Giuliani -AHRRRGH. Giuliani who thinks it's OK to be gay and have the full protection of the society, kill babies (yes the unborn are babies) and well, make so many thoughtless decisions that he is now on his third or fourth wife. Sheesh I get it, you know he fall in love easily or he get bored or whatever! When a Christian endorses Giuliani it's pretty hard to hold that 'christian' in high regard.
Huckabee - wow, well who wouldn't like him, this is a man who has proven that he can make a commitment and stick to it (I'm referring to his massive weight loss) um he's a Baptist minister and he too seems to have a problem with Romney's Mormonism.
Then there's on the left- Hilary. Do we want the Clintons back in the White House. Last time they held court in the oval office, there was a 'breakdown' in discipline. While I do not believe in holding the past against those who may have changed, there is still the talk of socializing every bloody thing. I cannot seem to muster the strength to wail! Perhaps I'll be thrilled com Super Tuesday.
Bye!

All I want for Christmas!

It's finally 2008! Who hoo! I had a great 2007, my family was so blessed that I have no complaints. I was able to say a prayer of thanks everyday ( I may have missed forty or so) Sometimes forgetting that God is blessing you occurs when you are overwhelmed with blessings. Everything is wonderful- but I still feel that there is something missing...
Superficially, I am thinking that I am missing the Kindle from Amazon.com. The kindle is a wireless reading device- Wireless? - yes! you don't have to sync a thing!!

I really am a book girl- but I have to give in to technology and the Kindle is only 0.7 inches thick and well, who could look away from such a light reading facilitator. I suppose I am getting a little tired of waiting on Amazon and B&N to send my books in 2 days! Sheesh!
I decided to buy my own Kindle and they are sold out at Amazon !!! I'll wait.

Spiritually I think I am missing my mission- I have a book that I have been editing for such a bloody long time it is beginning to feel like dinner with extended family members- you know...
I feel like I am ripping of my own dream because this book seems bigger than the box that I brought to put it in. Crazy, because I know that I can handle it and I am never afraid of the things that I write, but I question weather I can make a difference sometimes. So ready or not I am going to publish in April of 2008- there I've said it.

Like Mondays, a New Year is a great beginning and I am frothy with buoyancy as that one voice in my head like to say. This year comes loaded with possibilities and wonderful probabilities and my heart is wide open. I will have prayers of thanks everyday and a big wide smile in my cockles!!! Love

Staying in the SUN!

Some days I ask God why I was not given the gift to sing, and then I am in the tub and I realize that - HEY I can SING!

This revelation is often short lived, OY!!

Then I see this dude (Nick Pitera)on youtube and I am again asking, "um Why HIM!" Anyhoo, I have other gifts three of which are quite wonderful (one is unmentionable (tee Hee)) But isn't it wonderful that GOD can gift this man with such amazing talent. My pre- pubescent daughters are not fans- but they are still young, and no boy should mess with Ariel!

Many people race through life without ever finding their gift(s) and they are quite miserable because of this. I recognized one of my gifts very early- only to say "NAH". Boy was I wrong, the thing is that our gifts will chase us into the light and even into our darkest places , and they will demand recognition. Our gifts are like children- they will not be ignored, and if we spend our time attempting to force them into boxes- they will rebel and they will take -us -out.
So sing because God is watching and he will love your tune, and your melody and your 'ungodly' croaking. What he will hear is the love in your heart and the joy behind your closed eyes.
Cheers!!

To the ten people who read this blog...

Gosh I adore you- really, even certain members of my family refuse to read my writings.SNARF!
I could just stop, but how do you shut off who you are? Impossible, eventually the essential oils of you will seep out and leave a nasty stain on the floor. Essential Oils of the YOU variety cannot be bottled up and silenced, because they were born to scream and get attention and smile and cry and just be..
On the days when your YOU has nothing to do- it will simply lend warmth your tummy and you will wonder why you suddenly feel like you are eight years old again. It's like the day you realized that you are so freaking special because God made only one 'YOU'. If you haven't realized that as yet, well sweetie, you need to grow up. Growing up is messy and difficult, but only if you fight your own power. You rock, and you have a God-given mission on this earth, do your mission, live your life, choose your own bloody major, or not, love the best guy/girl (never the guy/girl who's just 'good enough')dance like nobody is watching, but keep your clothes on ( you tube- oy) be honest with yourself - some of your friends, family, drinking buddies, cheesecake budddies - SUCK. It is so OK to dump them. You really deserve better, and yes today you may feel a little oily, but gosh darn it you're essential!
Cheers
Dionne Christie

Mr. Rogers and the Power of words.

In 1969, the US Senate had a hearing on funding the proposed Corporation for Public Broadcasting, but President Nixon wanted it cut in half for the Vietnam War.



I loved Mister Rogers, he was always so calm and accepting of other, and always willing to lend a hand. He taught so many children that there is true value in who they are- right now. In Mr. Roger's world, there was always a starting point. Life was never perfect but we could always choose to live perfectly. As a little kid in Jamaica,curled up on my veranda reading Nancy Drew or the Hardy Boys life was never perfect, but I could always imagine the solutions. I could choose to become pinched and depressed and do nothing, or I could plan and wait for that open crack that always comes. Then, I would jump- ready- willing - able and HAPPY. Mr. Rogers was one of the reigning princes in a world with soft voices and solutions and I will always love him. He was the calm prince who cared enough to stand up for the littlest guys -KIDS!

Time stood Still?

#1: I'm not buying Fred Thompson and #2: I'm 58% geek!

58%



So here's the thing- I'm 58% geek. Yep I know I am barely a wanna be, but I was still excited by the score. This opens up a whole new wardrobe for me- my 11 year old daughter will be mortified!! HEEE HEEE

I will never be as cool as my children expect me to be, and any attempts on my part to be cool would be quite pathetic! Yep I am that mature.

So how did I decide to take this test? Well you can blame Fred Thompson- or rather the idiotic Repubs. who insist on writing syrupy and super positive articles on the bum. No offense.

Every Republican seems to want a recreation of Ronald Reagan, it's damned idiotic. Yes Ronald Reagen was an actor- but who he was had to do with his character- not his profession. The positions he took- again character and the jokes he told - again character. The strength of his presidency - character!

Just because we know that no self respecting Conservative would vote for Rudolf Giuliani - doesn't mean that we need to strap our saddle to just any NRA loving actor. Your love of a gun doesn't make you a proper candidate for the Presidency- ask any rapper! (no offense to armed rappers)
Hell - let's ask him some real questions, and for goodness sakes let's allow him to answer. Let him join in on a debate or two.

This is not Law and Order people!

This is Presidency of, at this moment the greatest country in the world- take that from a humble immigrant :-) Seriously!
- And while you're at it- take a really good look at Ron Paul.

The Artsy Abortion!!!

Actress' Abortion Written Into TV Show

CULVER CITY, CA-Producers considered shooting around the abortion and using lighting tricks and strategically placed plants to cover up her uterus.

It's insane really, first the actress decides to have a child, the producers then have to decide how to conceal the pregnancy- which was not a part of the plot.

THEN- the actress decides that the baby was not worth keeping and then yaaah- they decide to include her decision to kill the baby, in the script!

Now I have never seen this show, and I really don't care to see it, however have we gone so far off the deep end in America- that abortion is now used as art?

Have we abandoned decency and slid so far into iniquity, that death is now artsy?
There is no shame anymore. No personal- 'what the heck am I thinking' reflection in our lives anymore.



'It's like - first I want my baby, then I like don't want my baby and then I realize that it's not like human so like I like abort it!!!!!!!'


Seriously?!

I'm not implying that this actress did not employ some deep thought when contemplating murder- who doesn't-

BUT when you allow your sin to be written into a soulless script - DAMN. That takes some serious balls loaded with juice from satan!

When was the last time you wandered?

I Wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Wordsworth

We sometimes lose touch with reality. We begin to really believe that our in boxes are the most important things in life. We turn around and we realize that we do not know who we are. We keep our secret yearnings locked away and we work to make the dreams of our employers a reality. We watch and wonder when our time will come and we continue on the never ending unicycle - keep it steady - don't want to fall off!

What would happen if we got off , if we wandered for a while, what would we find? What if we decided to find out he truths about who we really are. Would we be surprised- flabbergasted -excited - freaked out? I meet people who have no idea who they are- forget doing what they love- many people can not even express their favorite ice cream flavor.

I ask you if you can't figure out your favorite flavor of ice cream- have you realistically thought about your life :-). My is pistachio and I have tried about forty flavors!!

Wander- aim for nothing and see what you discover , it really is a wonderful habit to form. Many adults are not willing to 'waste time' in order to wander; but blissfully skipping or sauntering through the lanes of our minds may bring us face to face with ourselves.
The hopes and dreams that we had before we were introduced to that awful word- impossible.

This does not have to be a daily goal, even a monthly 2-hour escape would be a wonderful respite. Be prepared to ask yourself some real truths- and be prepared for the answers. Prepare also for the possibility that you may at first become aware of nothing; and if that happens- relax and look forward to you next wander through the fields.

You make not find the elixir for world peace, but you make equip yourself to manage that unicycle a lot better. You may even decide that the unicycle is really not for you.

Cheers

Happy Homeschool Mom

I am feeling really groovy today. Our official Home school has been humming along for the past three days of the new year, and all the kiddies are excited and working.
OK- actually the three year old- Ari, has no desire to work. He has his own folder of activities, but he seems more interested in drawing kittens (he calls them mews) and 'earning' praise stickers!
I actually underestimated the girls this year. They are faster than last term and I have had to scramble to provide worksheets and tests, above the planned curriculum to fill their time - and we have really full days!
This is so exciting, because we might be able to add an additional hour of geography this year! We are studying the American Government this year and the girls will start their projects on the Presidency next week.
They did extraordinarily well last year and tested above their grade levels. I am quite proud of their consistent work and even of my teaching, because last year I endured a long and painful depression. It was the first time in my life that I have had to have a serious talk with my children about my illness. I have been suffering from depression since I was a small child - around nine years old,and I have always regarded the illness a sad curse. I have tried several medications and I found actual relief with Paxil- WOW was it awesome!!!!!!!! - and then the side effects became 'aggressive' so - away with Paxil and after a couple of weeks, I could literally feel the depression undulate against my peace.
Depression sucks!
But I feel so much better now! God has been very good to me, and I have an awesome family.

Also I called my friend Lane today and we had a wow conversation as the children got ready for their day. It was only about a twenty minute chat but she is so very marvelous, that it felt very filling - do you know?
We used to be neighbors -Lane and I, and I was always so busy and/or depressed that I did not socialize aggressively.I hate spreading the icks! Now that I have moved away (only about 7 miles or so) I realized that I really missed her. Neat Huh!

She's also a writer and really that makes her so much more special than the average bloke or blokette you meet everyday. Anyhoo the lunch break is at its' end. Have a great day people. OH- here is this great list of things to do everyday to increase your happiness. I 'do' at least five of these things EVERYDAY, and it makes me feel as if I am a giver and not simply a pouty taker in this world- try some , it's super good!!

The 10 steps to happiness:

Plant something and nurture it
Count your blessings - at least five - at the end of each day
Take time to talk - have an hour-long conversation with a loved one each week
Phone a friend whom you have not spoken to for a while and arrange to meet up
Give yourself a treat every day and take the time to really enjoy it
Have a good laugh at least once a day
Get physical - exercise for half an hour three times a week
Smile at and/or say hello to a stranger at least once each day
Cut your TV viewing by half
Spread some kindness - do a good turn for someone every day
– BBC 2 documentary series 'Making Slough Happy'

Defective Condoms in South Africa

So here is the thing- South Africa has one of the world's highest rate of HIV infection; and this leads to almost 1000 (ONE THOUSAND) aids related deaths every day in South Africa!
The government - has not always been kind to those infected, however they do allow for condom distribution in order to slow the spread of the disease.

So in order to help - a government official decided to take a bribe and allowed defective condoms to be purchased!

Surprise - he wasn't put to death!

Really- should we care about Africa- when the Africans do not seem to care about each other?

-Yes

-But WHY

- Because it is what Jesus would do.
- and Because there are corrupt officials everywhere - in some countries they even call bribes 'contributions'

how do You spell GENOCIDE? D-A-R-F-U-R

I heard the song "for What It's Worth" today and I thought about the reprehensible situation in Darfur. There is no reason for this to be happening, the world has had several dances with genocide and it seems that everyone is short on caring. Poor people, those without voices and political connections, those with nothing to trade are being murdered like mange afflicted dogs.
There is absolutely no reason for this to be happening. The Bridge of Hope Ministry in Ohio, pastored by Rod Parsley has been trying to help these poor people for years now. We send out few dollars to buy children from the Muslim overlords and we help with a few dollars to help women who were raped and brutalized and we wait- Everyday there is a new danger for these people- God's people. Everyday ministries like Bridge of Hope ask us to give a little to help but the help does not stop the new and vulgar ways men have practiced to maim and to murder. NOW WHAT!

Christians cared and acted long before the Sudanese Government had to acknowledge the atrocities, and certainly long before our government even commented at length about the murders and rapes and destruction. Long before Condelesa Rice appealed to the congress for their attention to this matter- Long before the Congress chose to do nothing. You see- even if the Sudanese Government can give us key members of Al Quida -it is morally out of bounds for us to give them what appears to be tacit approval to murder peoples' bodies and souls; I am so sad I could cry-

We will one day beheld accountable for the sins that we chose to ignore. One day we will be asked why we did nothing. I do not know what to do- but I tell you, it is one of the things that keep me up at night. Children are dying, women and men are dying and they die thinking that they, are nothing in this world. Villages are burned into the sands as I sit here and wonder what I can do.

Do you have any ideas? Will you share them with me?



Buffalo Springfield
For What It's Worth
Stephen Stills, 1966


There's something happening here
What it is ain't exactly clear
There's a man with a gun over there
Telling me I got to beware

I think it's time we stop, children, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down

There's battle lines being drawn
Nobody's right if everybody's wrong
Young people speaking their minds
Getting so much resistance from behind

I think it's time we stop, hey, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down

What a field-day for the heat
A thousand people in the street
Singing songs and carrying signs
Mostly say, hooray for our side

It's time we stop, hey, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down

Paranoia strikes deep
Into your life it will creep
It starts when you're always afraid
You step out of line, the man come and take you away

We better stop, hey, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down
Stop, hey, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down
Stop, now, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down
Stop, children, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down

If you're murdered and you're in Darfur- is it genocide?

The facts are these:
The people of Darfur are being hunted, raped and slaughtered.
The world is ignoring genocide- again.

Hey Mister ! Vegansexuals do not eat nuts!!

Everyday I see or hear of some pot full of nonsense in the world. Today it was the vegansexuals- these paragons of critical thought do not have sexual relations with meat eaters, because they consider that the bodies of meat eaters are basically cemeteries for all the dead animals that they have eaten.
OY!!

Why do some groups insist on the deep end of the dirty pool - Seriously!

China and Mattel

I suppose the title of this entry should be China and corporate America; given the latest massive toy recall is further proof that this off-shoring of labor is a really bad idea. As a cynical consumer I really do believe that Mattel knew about this lead paint problem and the use of high powered magnet since 2002 - yes the toy recall extends to 2002.

The chairman of Mattel really does expect that the average American parent will believe that after all those years, they were simply duped and now yikes- they have to protect the children. Sadly he is correct- a few days after the recall, I saw an interview with a mother of five who felt unsure as to what she will do. She did not want to discard the toys until she was sure of what was going on!

As a mother- I was stunned- The makers of the toys listed what was under the recall, yet this American Mother was not sure of her next move. Sheesh it is no wonder what harmful and deadly tricks corporations can pull and simply walk away smiling.

My daughters - after watching the news report and checking the list went upstairs immediately; I then found them separating all the questionable toys - the girls are 10 and 11. The children even discarded their many Barbies out of protest, they even had their three year old brother helping.


Children are not attached to things, it is the parents who push cheap baubles at them, only to then wonder how their children become so focused on material things.
We do not allow our children countless toys, but we will present them with any book they need or want. Our children need to learn the art of thinking, in order to recover from a society of adults who are unable to make a reasonable decision.

This idea that Americans need cheaply produced goods in order to continue growing this hungry consumerism baby is insane. Many rush to the stores to stock up on every painted plastic crap they can get their hands on in order to amuse children who simply need love,attention and a few good books.

China has now become a driven marketplace, and only those who drive her can effectively disengage from her. We do not need under priced Barbies and every toy reflective of every Disney or Pixar compilation. We need children who are engaged in learning and exploring their innate infinite curiosities.
The problem now is not just the lead and the magnets- it's the lies:

It's all China's' fault
Really- it's China
We appraised them of our standards and they ignored us...
Blah Blah lie lie lie!

Many Americans are at heart- (even with the lady in New York beckoning others (like Me)to her lovely shores)- transparent
So now China is the evil destroyer of young American brains, and the poor fellows and ladies in the corporate offices- the ones who structured the deals and were required to test the standards- have been misused by the evil Asian bastards.

Americans need to wake up and realize that we are our own homeland security. It is our job to respond immediately to any offense against our children. We need not wait for clarification from a corporate tool who really does not care. We are responsible and if we feel that corporations do not have our best interest at heart ( hint: they don't) we should separate them from our purse strings.

Perhaps for Christmas this year or for the next special gift we could offer our children books. We do and they love us all the same

Seriously!

America’s infrastructure report card for 2005
From the American Society of Civil Engineers National

• Aviation, D+
• Bridges, C
• Dams, D
• Drinking water, D- oy OY!
• Energy (national power grid), D
• Hazardous waste, D
• Navigable waterways, D-
• Public parks/recreation, C-
• Rail, C-
• Roads, D
• Schools, D
• Security, I
• Solid waste, C+
• Transit, D+
• Wastewater, D- WOW
• America’s Infrastructure GPA: D

Sleeping Soundly at Night: OY!

Goodnight Tammy Faye

Tammy Faye the wonderfully vivacious televangelist has died. I will hopefully meet her one day in Heaven. She was amazing - and dared to be stylish in an environment that often dictates how a Christian woman should dress. She beckoned us into her world with her heavily made lashes and her painted lips and she shamelessly and consistently called out the name Jesus. Her last interviews were a testament to courage and faith. She chose not to hide her disease from the public and proved to all Christians and others that even when the body fails one can still find strength and JOY by calling on the only name that matters JESUS. Goodnight Tammy Faye, thanks for the lessons.

This is Tammy Fays' last note:
July 16, 2007

My Dear Friends,

It has been such a long time since I've written and I am so sorry for the long delay. I have been in bed for almost a year now. I have times when I feel good and times when I feel really bad. But, I have learned one thing about feelings. They have NOTHING TO DO WITH FAITH IN GOD!! He is the SAME yesterday, today and forever. He NEVER changes. That is what the Bible says and God's word does not lie EVER!

There have been many days when I felt so terrible with my back and stomach, that I have hardly been able to breath. I cry out to the Lord knowing that many of you are praying for me. In spite of it all, I get dressed and go out to eat. I may only be able to eat one bite, or sometimes ten bites, but I swallow each bite in "faith believing". There are MANY times it doesn't stay with me long at all, but I keep trying and HE helps me.

My daughter is here a lot of the times to give me my medications and to make sure I don't forget. When I got sick, she literally moved in and gave me hugs and kisses that are so needful during this period of ones life. She said, "I want to take care of my Mom". I gave her the last couple weeks off to go home and spend time with her children, James and John. They are well taken care of while Sissy is gone. My girlfriend, Deborah has been staying with me for the past 3 weeks. We have been friends for thirty years, so we know each other well! She gave Tammy Sue some much needed rest and she has taken up where Sissy left off. She will be here for two more weeks. How grateful I am to have such strong, loving, support around me. Then of course, there is my wonderful husband! We moved from Charlotte, N.C. to Kansas City, Missouri. He came here every weekend to build me a new house and when I got here, it was ready to move into, bed and all!! They had it beautiful and it is the most beautiful home I have ever seen. He has wanted to build me a house for 13 years, and I finally let him! His children and grandchildren have come every weekend to visit us, and it is so much fun! Someone I cannot forget is a friend named Daina. She worked so hard, I thought she was going to get sick. Bless her heart. I have to have help eating, bathing, doing my hair, taking my medicine, and help just getting comfortable, which is really hard for me to do.

I try really hard to eat and keep the food down, but sometimes, it is like my throat would just shut down on me, and the food comes right back up. So through all the prayers, I have finally gained some weight. I have gone from 60 pounds, to 65, for which I am very thankful.

I ask in great humbleness that you pray that I will be able to eat without it coming back up. I crave hamburgers and french fries with LOTS of ketchup! When I can eat that again, it will be a day of victory!

In closing, I want you to know that I am praying for you and your loved ones and I am believing God for complete healing. God is a healer of EVERYTHING!

I will let you know when I get to eat my hamburger! HA!

Love,